Can I just be honest and say that these past 6 weeks of me working full-time while trying to keep up with my other part-time job, helping my husband with his ministry, trying to spend meaningful time with our kiddos, and just trying to keep up with the basics - clean underwear, food, and clean dishes - has been a blur - an impossible blur! So trying to finish the Freedom from Junk Challenge in the month of February on top of all that was an insane idea! In the beginning, it seemed like a great idea! But the awful embarrassing truth about me is that I think I am Superwoman. I do! I might never say that, but I just keep saying "Yes" when I should have learned by now how to say, "No", "Not now", or "Never"... but I am a very unteachable stubborn person. And every once in a while I have to face the reality that I am not now, nor have I ever been, super anything. Except maybe super stuck on pretending that I am. Those 6 weeks of working full-time again in, what I feel, is one of the hardest jobs... I felt pulled in many directions at once. And I had to once again admit that I am only one person only capable of being in one place at a time, doing only what 2 hands, 2 feet, and a Bachelors degree can accomplish. But I learned a lot about myself, I got to teach professionally (which is something in my blood, it literally pumps life into me... as it also drains it out, ha!), I Was reminded what a true partner my husband is as he took on a lot to help fill the gaps I couldn't fill anymore, and I got to see what it is like to work full-time while having 2 kids! There are pros and cons to pretty much everything in life, and those 6 weeks (and what they were all for) is another blog post coming soon!
I bet you noticed that the title of this post says "Day 57"... this was supposed to all be done by the end of February. It is the end of March, and we are only halfway finished with this challenge. It was so long ago, I even had to reread my last posts about this uncluttering challenge just to remember what my goals were, let alone actually reach any of them! We still have all the previously cleared out items for give-away and selling, some of it currently being in a huge car seat box in our bedroom. Kyle has been awesome, throwing in new items for give-away on occasion. And each time he tells me he has added something to the box, I chuckle, mentally pinning my chest with a failed challenge badge.
But, the great news is that I made up the goals and the challenge... so I can restart the challenge! Today was my first day back to my normal life of full-time mom, part-time babysitter... tomorrow I go back to my part-time preschool assistant job. I spent most of the morning just putting everything back in its place in my home, and it feels so good to look around and know that my house is put back together, for the most part. I hated the feeling for 6 weeks of walking by clutter, dirty laundry, both sides of my sink full of dirty dishes... and not having the time or energy to take care of all of it the way I want. It seemed everything in my home was only partly done, and it drove me crazy!
HA!!! That first part was written almost 2 weeks ago! I am still so deranged at times that I believed getting back into my regular schedule and catching up wouldn't be demanding! So I have been back in the "Stay at home mom while working 3 part-time jobs" schedule for 2 weeks, and I just now feel like I am caught up. And by "caught up", I don't mean all my dishes and laundry are clean or that all my projects are completed... all I mean is that I feel present again. Before I felt like I was drowning a bit, and then I felt like I needed to be in recovery from drowning... I now feel like I can manage my life again, or manage within reason and no worse than before!
So, back in the saddle again for the challenge to declutter my home, and I really am excited to get it done this time! I am going to give myself a more realistic deadline this time around, and I promised my family not to take on any demanding projects or other jobs until this one is finished.
When we left off last time (Day 14 - gasp), we had cleared out 389 items from our kitchen, entryway closet, my son's/my husband's/my closet and dresser. While I was not able to consign the clothes I cleared from my son's room in the children's resale event I usually participate in every 6 months, I was able to give it all to a friend who is having a baby boy soon! The due date is close to my son's birthday, so I was excited to know that most of the clothes will be the perfect season for her son to use! And putting all these sweet, precious memories in a box to give to someone isn't as difficult when you know they will be used to make new memories for someone else.
So, we still have half the original goal list to tackle, and at least 111 items to get rid of! The places in my house left to attack and clear out are:
My daughter's closet
The toys in the living room and play room
And let's face it - since it has been 2 months since I cleared out the first spaces, I will need to re-unclutter the kitchen counter that I cleaned the first day of this challenge! Such is life!